I am so sick of these thoughts taking over my mind and bringing me down all the time, so I have made a compromise with myself; I am going to meet myself halfway. I am going to lose 5kg and after that I am not allowed to complain about my weight and I am not allowed to lose any more weight. Seeing as I can't accept myself for the way I am now, I am going to have to change myself to gain some self-esteem which is just what society wants these days; for girls to change themselves to become the ideal image the media has created in all of our minds. So I have already lost to society, but I really hope that other people out there are strong enough to fight for what we should be seeing in the world; women of all different shapes and sizes that are proud of who they are and what they have.
Just remember though, that everybody is beautiful and original in their own way and even though you may hate a lot of things about yourself, there are millions of people out there that would kill to have that.